friendship kills depression

nothing.

all i can't think of right now is nothing.

not that there is nothing to think about, but i guess, my mind, cluttered with problems, stress, and other issues, decided to stop doing anything...well i guess, not totally coz i'm right in front of my computer doing this blog.

i have realized that the human mind gets tired, too. one day, it will shut its system to rest. and that is what we call, depression.

being depressed is a difficult situation to be in. in fact, admitting and accepting that you are in this state is the most difficult. suddenly, you become more emotional. you start to cry at the smallest things, and later on get bothered by it. innocent statements suddenly have a different meaning for you. you get tired of everything-- tired of working, tired of caring for the one you love, tired of being emotionally attached to anybody. you start hating the world. more so, you start hating yourself. you can't find a reason for existing. you don't enjoy the things that you used to. you even forget a lot of things, unintentionally, of course!

just few nights ago, i had a short but serious chat with my friend. being depressed, it was difficult for me to talk to her about it. but in between laughs and emoticons, i was able to spill it out. i tried not crying, but i can't help it! questions from "do you need professional help?" to "what are your plans" were what maintained our flow of conversation. i was in rage for some time for i know deep within me, i wasn't asking for help, nor looking for definite plans. all i wanted was to let somebody know about my situation. that's it. plain and simple. i think that it is a misconception for people who are depressed. In most cases, when somebody approaches you and tells you "i'm depressed", one immediately poses several questions and gives a gazillion of advises and help. What people are missing out is that depressed people just need to speak out whatever they want to say, without any interruption. they need to be listened to, and not be judged. they need assurance that everything will still be in its place the moment they recover. if a depressed person asks you to leave her alone, then do it-physically! but you have to give assurance that you'd still be by her side, come what may. but after all the crying, and the sleepless nights, that short conversation lightened my burden. and i just love my friend for staying with me.